We had another threatening letter today. I have had them before but not for a while. And all the old feelings of stress and worry have risen in me. It threatens to come around and visit (Barclays sending the boys in). It says they will come to collect the debt £22k of debt because yes of course we have that sort of money to give because if we did we would just not pay them and sit on it for fun.
But I must admit it is the stress of feeling that someone is going to come to the house and threaten me - they are never physically threatening but just the way they visit and the things they say. They have all the power and we have none. I have none.
So how am I going to deal with this. I need to stay calm. I need to let it wash over me. I have told him that he has to deal with it tonight. Not tomorrow but tonight.
So I am going to darts - I am going to have a good time, play darts, have a laugh and just get away for the time being.
What else can I do? Stress, stress, stress, make myself ill with worry and nothing changes, things only get worse.
I still pray to god that we will find a way to come out of this the other end - but not sure my prayers are being heard.
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