That time of year

Life is not easy at the moment.

I am trying hard but feel just one, possibly insignificant event could make it too hard.

I am not sure I will be here this time next year.

I am not sure I am strong enough anymore.

Other days I am thankful for what I have,
I am thankful for what I am.
But it never lasts.

Please let 2011 be different - in a good way.
Please let 2011 be the end of my punishment for crimes I am unsure of.
Please.